Devotional Resting.

I don’t have anything to do today, so why do I feel the urge to make a schedule for myself?

Being a business owner and being one’s own boss can be a strange conundrum. Whenever I have worked full-time jobs in the past, I have always relished days off. Counting down the hours and minutes until I could collapse into a bundle on the sofa and indulge my senses with delicious snacks and bingeable fantasy TV series.

Today I find myself in a state of “day-off anxiety.” It’s a cold and misty Sunday, the perfect opportunity to enjoy endless hot drinks, whilst immersing myself in a juicy book under my favourite fluffy blanket, but an unwelcome voice in my head is telling me that this is indulgent and that I should be doing something more productive with my time. Sure, I have a painting I want to finish, some crafting, and songwriting to be completed, but why today, when my mind and body clearly want to rest?

I rebuke this inner voice. Wherever this nasty little program has sprouted roots from, I am choosing to dispell is. I’ve had so many bosses in the past who have made me work hard (harder than any human should), but now that I am my own boss, surely things should be different!? What’s so wrong with a day or two of generous relaxation? I must keep reminding myself to be the kind, compassionate, and loving boss I never had but always yearned for.

Would things feel different if I were hitting my financial goals? Do I feel that I’m not doing enough and therefore should feel guilty for resting when I should be working hard to earn money? When will I feel as though I am enough? All of these questions feel uncomfortably influenced by capitalist patriarchy ~ the exact opposite of everything I strive to achieve not only in business, but in my life.

So what is the remedy…?

Keep calm and carry on resting.

My dream life involves working as little as possible while earning more. Therefore, resting is a vital activity for generating abundance. There’s a saying: “fake it ‘till you make it,” but I prefer to see it as: “living your dream life into existence.”

So today, I choose devotional resting. Allowing myself to indulge in nothingness. No plan, just allow the day to unfold at a gentle pace. I did a long, slow, intentional Yoga practice, I’ve had an essential oil bath, and watched some fantasy anime. It’s only the middle of the day, and I’ve already opened myself up to receive so many downloads and inspired thoughts, including this blog entry.

Life has a way of rushing by so fast. I don’t want to miss any opportunity for stillness and solitude to keep me grounded in the present moment.

Note to self: Rest more and take more time off for adventures. Fuck what anyone else says, I’m a fantastical elven mage.

Love,

Chloe xo